As everyone who is more than casually acquainted with me already knows, I’m a creature of habit in November. It’s all about two things National Novel Writers Month (NaNoWriMo) or NaNo for short and Thanksgiving. Also those that have helped and cheered me on in the past know that my NaNo novel is fueled by two things: Pepsi and Smarties candies. Only this year something has changed, this year I don’t have a taste for Smarties. They taste like dust. I’m sure that it has something to do with the stroke I’m still recovering from, but it was a shock to put what has for years been my favorite candy in my mouth and absolutely despise the taste. Instead, I find that I am craving cinnamon, specifically RED HOTS and ATOMIC FireBalls. Thankfully, I didn’t stock up on the smarties yet. (I was waiting for the after Halloween sale.) Instead, I went today and bought out the store of RED HOTS and Fireballs.
What else has changed that I don’t know about with this stroke? I have noticed that lots of things I used to eat don’t taste the same to me anymore, but none have been as dramatic a change as the smarties were. What if I cook the big family Thanksgiving meal, I always cook and find out that I don’t like any of it? What other changes might have happened that I am unaware of? Writing is still a struggle what if I find out that I can’t do that like I used to? My typing speed is greatly hindered by the weakness of my left hand. Where in past NaNos I’ve been able to write all day nonstop and get some 5,6 and even 10k days I’m going to be lucky to get the required 1700 to make goal this year. Sometimes I wonder why these things keep happening to me and why I have to keep downsizing my life. I don’t know the answer, but I am praying that next year will be one without all the health issues that have derailed my life the last few years. Anyway thanks for listening and stay tuned for snippets of my Nano Novel “Out of the Darkness” Throughout the month next month.